Exciting!!!!!
Dec 27, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C8i6ZSR619E

hey you guys welcome back to my channel
and if you're new welcome to my channel
I'm not gonna say happy vlogmas because
i am done with vlogmas for 2019 that was
absolutely a ball yes I did run into
sorry my glasses are janna fogging up a
little I did run into a few days where I
somehow missed I don't know how I
managed to mess up my numbers but
somehow I fell behind I try to catch up
finally I was like okay I don't think
I'm gonna ever be able to catch up on
these couple of numbers so I'm just
gonna skip those numbers and jump over
to where I'm supposed to be and that's
what I did and it was pretty easy to
figure it all out so anyways I just want
to say thank you to everybody that
joined in on my vlog means this year it
was my first year I'd never did it
before
I didn't even know what vlog miss was
and yes I've heard a lot of people say
it's vlog miss or it's lost vlog timber
it's not vlog means but because well I'm
Amy and I like to do things different I
went ahead and took the a off of my name
and I did move it to from my two Emmy so
it was vlog meas I did take someone's
suggestion on that I did try to make it
more personal and do vlog my but you
know I I seen kind of where it didn't
look correct so I was like yeah I'll
change it but anyways I just again want
to say thank you to everybody that
followed along and enjoyed we had an
amazing month there was some high notes
there were some low notes but all in all
I had an amazing time I didn't do as
much Dave vlogging but that's because of
how I'm transitioning my channel from
having my channel be more of a family
filled channel to more back to my
channel and what I originally started my
channel to be which is about my health
and my weight loss and my journey
through healing from traumatic things
that happen as a child and just building
myself up from there I'm not gonna say
that I'm never gonna Dave vlog because
that could be a possibility I might
throw those in there here
there but I just want to be able to
daily show you guys where I'm at in life
and that could be just about anything I
may take you guys along with me grocery
shopping now that this is gonna be a
whole new this is gonna be a whole new
thing for me and two different
ingredients and different ideas for
mills so it might take you guys along to
show you guys what I am doing and that
might even spark some ideas for you guys
and like I said before if you guys have
any ideas my email is down below in the
description shoot me an email with those
ideas and I can look them up and if it's
something that I can do then I will
likely would make it and show it to you
guys as I'm preparing it so that's
something that is fun that I will be
starting to do with this weight-loss
journey that I am restarting on this is
a new weight-loss journey the past is
the past we're not going to focus on the
past I can't go back and change what the
past has been but I can definitely make
my future you know I mean I can make my
future be what it's gonna be and I am
really shooting for success and not
looking at any negativity and I hope
that everybody behind me is going to
support that and be there I know there's
people that are optimistic and I know
that there are people also standing back
scratching their head and saying I don't
know if I can trust her words because
I've heard this multiple times not from
just her but from other youtubers as
well and I get that I understand that
but that's kind of the beauty of being a
human sometimes you you mess up you know
I mean changing a lifestyle isn't just
gonna happen overnight and you're gonna
have run-ins where it might mess up a
little bit but as much as I have messed
up it have hasn't caused me to want to
just give up I always have the hope that
one of these days it's going to catch
and it's gonna go and especially now
that I've got it so drawn into my brain
of what my body's gonna be like if I
lose the weight and I can actually move
and walk and scrub my house as clean as
I want it to be and cook those amazing
long elaborate meals that I've been
always wanting to cook for my family and
you know taking my children out places
alone
I don't have to worry about am I gonna
be able to keep up with them because you
know they're little they've got look
they've got fast legs and so those are
just things like that I think about when
I am imagining a weight loss for myself
so anyways with that I have also been
preparing for this transition into my
new lifestyle I went to Dollar Tree
yesterday and I got some big bill not
billboards but um poster board and I'm
going to be making a chart out of that
and with that I will be hanging it up on
the wall and so every time I weigh in we
will also update my weight loss to the
amount of pounds that I weight are that
I lost that week and that way we can
keep the tally as well for the money
going into the jar
so again if you aren't a part of the
challenge just yet I've only had a few
people say they want to be a part of it
if you want to be a part of this
challenge I need you guys to email me be
us be a active an active subscriber on
my channel a mail me that you want to be
a participant in this challenge and try
and find a healthy Mill idea that you
would be able to send to me so that I
can also take a look at it and see again
if I can make it if it's something I can
have I don't really have any you know
like a restriction on eating like I
don't have any allergies except for
avocado I just have given up eating
avocado because it does cause me to have
tummy cramps and then of course no pork
other than that I am game to eating
anything and even if it's something that
does contain pork I can always
substitute it for Turkey so that don't
shy away from it if it does have pork in
it just you know I can switch it around
um what else have I been doing I did go
I don't know what happened to I did go
and buy a few like last year before I
started this last weight loss thing I
had went to a sporting goods store and
bought some like restraint bans and
dumbbells and things like that I can't
find him I don't know what happened to
him they
wings and flew out of my house so I did
go when I bought one this one is what's
the say on this one no this one's a
pretty tight
research research van and what I'm gonna
do is I will be using this a lot while
strengthening my back muscles I think
that that's gonna be a really good tool
to strengthening my back muscles and
strengthening my stomach muscles I also
got two pound dumbbells I'm only
starting very light and I will move up
reason being is I don't want to hurt
myself in the process of doing this just
because I don't want to have anything be
a divider to succeeding in this life
change that I've done and you know this
isn't something that's temporary so
building up my cinema I think is
probably gonna be the most smartest move
than just jumping in and thinking I can
do 20 pound lifts and you know what I'm
saying like I'm not gonna do something
that's just not sustainable I want to do
something that I can build my muscle up
because I am very weak right now and I
know that but I definitely am on the
road to recovery and yes I I have said
that I'm doing a challenge and yes I've
used the word challenge I've also used
the word you know doing this for you
guys I am NOT doing this life change or
this weight-loss challenge for anybody
but myself but the reason that I'm doing
the challenge is one to just make it fun
you know why not throw some fun into it
if you're gonna do it why not make it
fun also with that is why not do
something that I can't engage with my
subscribers and make them be a part of
it why you know yes I could take that
money and say okay well every pound I
lose is going to go into a jar for me
but that's not that's not who I am I
like to make my my channel my
subscribers be a part of this challenge
and a part of this journey with me and
that's why I'm saying that the money I
earn isn't gonna go to me it's gonna go
to one of
you guys so that is why I'm saying I
want to join you guys in with this
challenge is because I think it would
just make it fun for everybody and the
excitement of that you guys also get a
chance to win it makes me more
accountable if anything because you guys
are riding on my success and that's what
I think is gonna make it so much more
fun is seeing the excitement of me
because I am working hard to reach my
goal and I have my own things that I am
receiving here at home for my
goal-setting and so that's why I am
saying that this part when I am winning
money basically per pound and it goes to
a lucky winner is because I want to draw
you guys a part of it I want my channel
to be a part of these things so that is
why I say I am doing this for you guys
to be able to win something because I
want you guys to be a part let's see
also I did want to adjust a few little
things and they're not really even
anything that's addressing I just want
to shine light and let you guys know I'm
aware and I see it clearly there has
been a log in a lot of negativity up
against my channel a lot of negative
comments and I just want to thank all my
loyal subscribers and friends that have
stuck by and is just like letting it all
roll off their back as much as I am
allowing it to roll off of my back you
know that's part of the game in being a
public figure is you're gonna have
people that like you you're gonna have
people that hate you and you're gonna
have people that are jealous of you and
I'm not saying oh I'm some special thing
that people are jealous of me but what
I'm saying is I do put myself out there
and so I'm accepting the fact that I
understand people are going to have
opinions with me whether they are good
opinions bad opinions abusive opinions
there's gonna be a pinion for everything
and I have learned
along the way that I cannot read into
every single comment so don't let those
negative comments drive you to feel a
certain way about my channel yes it
looks like there's a lot of drama
drawing to my channel but it's just
Maura that I felt like I needed to
address things but in reality I know I
don't need to address it because the
ones that are gonna stick by me no
matter what are gonna be here for the
long haul whether they're here and they
see the negative comments just read over
them like I said before don't even give
them two seconds of a thought don't
argue with them don't don't even respond
I'm not responding to them I am refusing
to turn my comments back off you know
what I am NOT going to punish all of you
guys just because of the negative
comments that come in I have a choice to
read those comments and I also have a
choice to believe those comments and
both of those things don't well the
believing part never happens the reading
part sometimes happens because I'm
reading through comments but as long as
we as as a team can just stick together
and keep our heads really close to then
the negative things that come through
let it just roll off of our backs and
let us just keep moving forward we've
got so many amazing things ahead of us
this year and of course like I said it's
gonna bring negativity there's some
things going on behind the scenes that
has also drawn negativity but it is what
it is and I just I you gotta love him
you gotta love him even even the ones
that could be a little turd I love them
and so now another thing I wanted to say
is welcome all of my new subscribers you
guys I am watching my numbers climb and
it is so exciting be especially with the
first of the year hitting us hard
quickly and all these changes happening
I cannot wait to bring all of you guys
along for this amazing journey that's
ahead of us so I just want to say thank
you to everybody that has been clicking
the subscribe button continue to give me
a thumbs up so that I know you guys are
enjoying my channel and also thank you
to all my loyal subscriber
I haven't by my side from the beginning
all the way until today yes there has
been days that I have fallen short there
have been days that I have tripped over
my own feet and I have still gotten back
up those are the subscribers that have
seen me start a weight-loss journey at
one point and fail that weight-loss
journey and they're here to try again
with me and that's all that matters and
those are the ones that I absolutely
adore and with all my new subscribers
that are joining I cannot be more happy
and more fulfilled joyfully not just
that but also I get to continue to grow
friendships and that's exactly what I
see my channel is is a big friendship
forum and yeah like I said there's
negativity but there's negativity
everywhere you go you're never gonna
find somebody that likes everything
about you and that's the beauty of life
and like I said that's the beauty of
being a public figure you put yourself
out there people are gonna see you your
name starting to fly around a little bit
more your numbers are starting to go up
meaning your name's being passed around
a little bit more so people join my
channel they see me some like me some
don't and that's okay but as long as I
have all of the rest of you guys that is
what continues to make this channel
worse for me continuing I am NOT going
nowhere I am just beginning and it's not
gonna come to an end especially not this
soon anyways I am going to close you
guys I just want to give you guys a
little heads up let you know everything
is going good on this side of town I
just kind of stayed quiet for a day or
two just because I needed to just kind
of regain my thoughts here get things
prepared for this big challenge kick off
and I will see you guys tomorrow um I
don't know what tomorrow is in store for
let me see what is tomorrow Saturday I
don't know if I'm gonna put another
video up just yet you guys I might wait
and your next video you see will be on
the 31st which is my day in the life of
what I truly eat right now versus what I
will be eating here starting the first
one we do our kick off anyways take care
you guys I may or may not see you before
then but if not you guys have a
wonderful ending to your year and I will
see you guys on the first talk to you
later
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